#wolfwood is terrified of knives and he's terrified of vash. he knows vash as a person is good

[angio2244]

[ID: A Trigun Stampede comic. Wolfwood goes "Oh shit" before the news van crashes into him, sending him flying. Meryl shouts "There's no dying on my watch, Mister!" while Wolfwood comes to with Vash beside him. He thinks, "Huh? Where am I? Wait..." He sits up, worried. "Huh? I can't remember anything... (Except my name.)"

Baffled and captioned "Head empty," he thinks, "What was I doing again? Who's Michael?? An eye? Huh?! Something about a knife? Two knives?" Vash exclaims, "Ah! He's awake!" He's shown sparkling as he smiles and asks, "Um... Are you alright? Sorry for running you over..."

Wolfwood's glasses shatter as the background goes black. Vash sweats, "Um... What's wrong? Your expression's terrifying..." Wolfwood shoots up and grabs Vash's hand. "Angel!! My love." Vash sweats, "HUH? Angel?"

Wolfwood, blushing, says seriously, "It must be fate. God brought us together to meet! I know we just met but... Please, would you marry me?" Wolfwood continues to look enamored and Vash bewildered while, in the front, Meryl says with dead eyes, "I should run him over again." Roberto, equally dead-eyed and drinking, says, "Too late. He's got brain damage."

Next, Wolfwood protectively holds an arm in front of Vash and growls, "I will protect you!" Vash sweats, "There's really no need!!" Then, Wolfwood smiles and rubs Zazi's head, and Zazi thinks, "Wow, he's really good at acting..."

Last is another comic. Zazi tells Wolfwood, "You're supposed to be guiding Knives' brother (Vash) to him." Wolfwood says nonchalantly, "No I'm not. We're getting married." Zazi goes wide-eyed and then reports to Knives, who shouts, "The Punisher said what!?" End ID]

Thank you @princess-of-purple-prose for description!

[firethekitty]

i really love these panels of some of the last times we see vash and wolfwood together (before That Part) because you can see just how much wolfwood genuinely cares about vash far beyond his “job” and how badly he doesn’t want vash to worry about him, especially during such a high-stakes mission

and how wolfwood doesn’t even bother trying to hide how much he himself is worrying about vash’s safety. and vash can see this and it’s obvious he appreciates it, but he also knows that acknowledging wolfwood’s concern would most likely cause him to get embarrassed, so he’s very gentle in his reassurance, doesn’t make a big deal out of it, kind of deflects his worry

wolfwood immediately moving to follow vash only to get blocked by elendira. he looks so uncomfortable here, like he desperately wants to protect him or say something or do literally anything but let him go off on his own...

also the way wolfwood specifies feeling a sense of dread and oppression from knives, not vash, even though he can clearly see feathers on his face

this really stands out to me because wolfwood was fucking terrified of vash at first. he also knows that knives has the ability to make vash lose control, and a part of him will probably always be scared of that, but that doesn't mean he's scared of vash. because despite everything, wolfwood trusts vash more than anyone else on the planet

[allbuthuman]

this panel made me think about wolfwood being scared of vash, who's the closest to a divine being he's ever seen, not just because of his inhumanness, but in the same way that he fears god's judgement, as an extension of seeing himself as irredeemable, and then he gets close to him and realises, dumbfounded, that vash doesn't just refuse to condemn him, but, despite all his scolding, actually forgives him, and wolfwood really doesn't fucking know what to do with that other than probably feel even worse 'cause the man who's extending this forgiveness to him is the man he's supposed to betray, 'cause maybe condemnation would be terrifying but easier to swallow

also about how vash and knives do cast down judgement on humanity from a narrative perspective too, they are indeed messengers, those of nightow, sent to put humans on trial for the readers to see, in the purgatory of no man's land, hesitant, hopeful advocate and merciless prosecutor. who is the judge? it's not god, and it's not man. the closest to one is the hivemind of the dependent plants, who've witnessed everything and become the in-story deliverers of a verdict: guilty as charged, alive as they should be.

only wolfwood wasn't there to see the verdict. wasn't there to be proven wrong and right at the same time. but that's for another post

[museqmeg]

a Meg Trigun Stargaze thought 💭:

I think I have a good speculation on who is going to return Vash's gun in Trigun Stargaze... so strap in for this thread! 🧵

Notice how I used the word "return." I do believe Vash already has his silver long colt in Peace Bringer for Orange's reimagining of Trigun. See my post below about this thought:

I'm gonna place my bets and predict that Wolfwood goes through the wreckage of JuLai and finds Peace Bringer.

I think after some time, he knows Knives survived (his EoM affiliation being his informant), and we're going to have this moment... but with Vash's .22 in his hands.

I also think Wolfwood found Knives first in the JuLai incident, and his a moment like the aforementioned panel.

He thinks this is his chance to end Knives, but he has Peace Bringer in his hands and he becomes afraid.

"If Vash couldn't stop Knives with this gun, how can I?"

And so, I think Wolfwood knows he's not strong enough to end Knives even in his weakened state.

He realizes he has to put his belief in Vash... and that terrifies him. Wolfwood knows Vash is resistant to kill. He has to put his faith in someone that lacks the conviction.

We saw Vash challenge Wolfwood on this in Stampede. It's a core moment in Trimax.

Wolfwood has to put his faith in someone who refuses to kill, even if it's in the name of protection--which is Wolfwood's entire motivation for his existence.

And Vash learns this in one of the hardest ways imaginable... through loss and grief.

Vash has to witness firsthand Wolfwood's conviction to protect. He has to watch Wolfwood make the ultimate sacrifice to uphold that ideal.

And while Vash and Wolfwood had been narrative foils through much of the story... in this regard, they become mirrors.

This strengthens Vash's resolve and conviction to protect a loved one's sacrifice. To finally pull the trigger of a .45 silver long colt named "Peace Bringer."

Knowing all of this from Trimax and Orange's intention and Nightow's ask to have Vash's gun be a .22 in Trigun Stampede... I believe it's a way to sharply bring into focus these climactic moments in Trigun Maximum.

I do believe Wolfwood will return Peace Bringer to Vash in Trigun Stargaze and that Wolfwood will have requested it to be modded to a lethal .45 so that Vash can carry Wolfwood's conviction: Protection.

And it's going to hurt.

[revenantghost]

I can't stop thinking about how different Wolfwood looking for Vash after the two-year gap is gonna be in Stampede (if Orange decides to go that route)

Wolfwood was so afraid of Vash when he found him again in Trimax. He only knew him for a moment before he saw the destruction that the twins are capable of. Even after they started to really bond and become good friends, he was so scared. If it weren't for Knives's orders, would he have stayed at Vash's side?

But in Tristamp, Orange has already played that hand. Vash so clearly saw through Wolfwood's mission, so him trying to pull it off a second time? They could, but it would be a bit repetitive.

The idea that in Tristamp, Wolfwood has seen Julai, knows what Vash is capable of (maybe is still terrified of him, maybe only needs him as a weapon against the Eye of Micheal and/or Knives) but still chooses to seek him out? Because he trusts Vash and knows he's good???

[smokeygrayrabbits]

vash getting all wilty sleepy in the fall/winter and everyone thinks he's dying or something. Milly keeps picking him up and tucking him into her coat and crying. Meryl gets all angry and defensive and keeps bringing him food and his favorite things. Roberto just sits with him in silence and looks at him sadly.

wolfwood, having worked with knives for so long, knows what's going on. nobody asks him. or vash.

(vash and wolfwood are too busy being emo and eye fucking to notice what's up.)

when it finally gets to winter, vash starts sleeping more. looking pale and eating less than usual. Milly, Meryl, and Roberto are losing it.

eventually they loose vash and wolfwood in a really bad shootout, separated while trying to avoid some particularly nasty bounty hunters.

they search the whole town for them for hours.

finally, around sunset, meryl spots a figure sitting under a tree . . . with a cross standing up next to him. while running over with a list of insults on the tip of her tounge, Roberto grabs her arm.

there's something in wolfwood lap.

someone. someone who's not moving.

vash is laying on the ground, wolfwood curled over his head.

he's not moving.

ohnoohnoohno

no no no

(wolfwood is very confused by why the girls and the old man are crying. it's weird.)

Millys blubbering was getting a little ridiculous, ignoring wolfwoods aggressive shushing.

vash wakes up with a little mrrp. freaks everyone out.

Roberto insists on a conversation about potentially terrifying plant things.

[orcelito]

ok I don't think we as a fandom talk about the way Vash cries blood enough

we only see it once or twice from what I remember, the one definite time being here ^ when the puppet attack first begins & he's dealing with the emotional agony of seeing so many of his family turn into puppets.

so it's clearly something that comes out only when he's in severe emotional distress.

the interesting thing is that Wolfwood is fucking TERRIFIED of him bc of it.

whatever this moment is, Vash is giving off the same sort of oppressive energy that Wolfwood's experienced with Knives. it's the first time during their travels that he's really been forced to recognize What Vash Is. he knew it of course, saw him in Jeneora, but he's such a goofy guy it's easy to forget.

but whatever Vash is doing here, it makes Wolfwood Incredibly aware of what he is.

so the real question i think is What exactly is going on here? is it unintentional? is it simply a response to the emotional agony?

Vash isn't the type to indiscriminately terrify everyone in the vicinity on purpose. he wouldn't be doing this purposefully out of anger while Wolfwood's there. no, in this moment, he's not even angry at all. he's Distraught.

going from This

to this

in just a moment.

yeah. that's some fucking emotional agony. i dont think Vash is doing this entirely on purpose.

but THEN...

as both Leonof and Wolfwood stare at him in fear, Both feeling his oppressive energy, Vash then lets out some sort of blast that blows against everything between him and Leonof. it doesn't destroy anything, doesn't even injure him, but it's a physically tangible effect that scares the Shit out of Leonof & spurs him into motion.

there may be some anger involved in this moment, but it's not the hair-trigger rage you would expect from seeing his family turned into puppets. it's something Quiet, something almost cold. he's distraught, Resigned, & retaliating just because he has to.

Vash hates all of this. he doesn't want to fight him. he fucking Knows this guy too, knew him as a kid, & none of this makes sense. but he knows that he needs to fight him, & doesn't have any kind of choice.

but he's not happy about it. not in the slightest.

[fruitsoxs]

hi socks just wanna let u know i have been thinking about those vashwood as roommates headcanons and i always come back to it cz it’s somehow??? so comforting??? 10/10 chef’s kiss thank u!

it's honestly my comfort au-- so here's a part two ! (here's part one)

Having Vash and Wolfwood as roommates would include(part two);;

warnings;; I included some nsfw headcanons this time. they're at the end and have a warning. This also has a bit of fighting/angst that ends in fluff notes: i have a couple of fics in the work for this au. let me know if there any big moments you would like to see written out into a full fic! (also possibly a knives spin off??)

Their jobs/majors

I kind of feel like Vash is studying in the science department. Specifically something that has to do with plant science? Botany, Environmental science, maybe even biology? I know it’s a little on the nose but I really do think it would work perfectly for him

Maybe he even opens up his own little flower shop in the future??

No matter what he has a lot of labs and he is always tired after them.

He probably has a part-time job as a barista at a little cafe on campus

No thoughts just Vash in a cute little apron

He’s a fan favorite among the college kids. They say he makes the best coffee, and he sometimes gives people little freebies when they look sad

His manager Meryl actively yells at him for it, but she doesn’t actually care that much.

He ALWAYS will give you freebies if you come in to visit him. He gets a free drink as an employee, and he’ll save it for you just in case you come in. Sometimes he’ll even take it to go and drop it off for you

Wolfwood gives huge phycology vibes. Mans had a messed up childhood and wants nothing more than to help other people through that stuff

Either that or he’s an art student. I can see that too

He takes school very seriously, but he is horrible at math. He cannot divide to save his life. He’s had to retake his math class like three times

His job? Well nobody knows and at this point everyone is too scared to ask. (He’s a security guard lol)

Whatever it is, he hates it. He comes home grumpy and needs lots of hugs and kisses.

He’ll be all pouty and pissed off, and then you’ll give him a little kiss on the cheek and a small smile will break out 

Bonus; Knives is on the track to becoming a surgeon. I will die on the hill that he is going into the medical field. (he’d look so good in scrubs) and i know McDonalds knives is kind of funny, but I'm thinking he’s actually and EMT. Imagine getting hurt and having Knives be your first responder (id die on the spot)

First Date

It’s not really a date- well you don’t call it a date. Vash just walks in with a couple of free tickets to a haunted house event thing  and asks if you and Wolfwood want to come

You’re like hell yeah

The drive there is like the calm before the storm. You listen to some music, seated in front with wolfwood driving. He definitely has his hand on your thigh. Vash is super excited about finally doing something that isn’t getting high and playing games

You all thought it was gonna be some dumb little spooky house. They’re never that scary. It’s just fun to see all the decorations and actors

Oh boy were you wrong

It’s so well put together. The actors are really into it, and they have amazing make up. When you’re standing in line, some clown girl walks up to Vash and you watch the regret build up on his face. The guy is already terrified

The first hallway is pitch black, and you have to rely on a feeling your way through it. Vash is mumbling about how much he hates it the entire time

Wolfwood is like “Don’t worry guys I’ll protect you.” And then proceeds to let out the loudest scream when the lights come on and there’s a girl dressed up as a ghost standing there

Soon all three of you are huddled up, holding hands, and shaking

These things should not be that scary!!!

It’s Vash who gets you kicked out

He gets so spooked that he runs into a bunch of boxes and knocks one of the fake walls down. The entire thing has to stop to fix it

You’re all banned

After that you go eat pancakes and complain about how scary it was

When things get tense

Fights can happen sometimes

None of you are perfect, and those boys have gone through some shit

Vash tends to shut himself away from you when he’s upset. He doesn’t come out of his room, and when he does he pretends like he’s fine. 

He doesn’t like burdening other people with his problems.

Eventually it just starts to feel like he doesn’t trust you enough to let you in. SIt gets really bad when he tells you to go away one day, and you watch Wolfwood walk into his room 30 minutes later

It doesn’t really turn into a fight. You just get sad, and even a little insecure. So, you avoid him back. Not because you’re vengeful, just because you feel hurt

A few days of the two of you not talking and Vash is in tears by your door

He begs for forgiveness and explains why he’s like this

You tell him it’s okay, but what he does really hurt you. He promises to work on it, and he does

That night the two of you make up for loss time

Wolfwood and you fight a lot more

Most of the time it’s silly little arguments that you solve pretty fast

Wolfwood is bad at communicating in general. But especially when it comes to his feelings

He has really bad days sometimes, and he can get grumpy really fast these days, and one day you really piss him off

He won’t tell you what you did though, he just gives you the cold shoulder

That pisses you off because you’d so be willing to talk it out and apologize, but he won’t tell you what you did 

So you’re mad now too

Things are tense between you too, and it all comes to an end on movie night when you start arguing about what movie to watch

You want to watch one of your favorite movies from your childhood and he says that it’s a stupid movie

Things get heated fast, while Vash just disappears into the background. He that the two of you need to workout your problems on your own (but he really wants to intervene) 

When the tears start falling, Wolfwood immediately stops

He takes a breath, and the two of you sit down and just talk. 

You talk ALL night about what happened, and what the two of you could have done better. In the end, you fall asleep on his chest while he plays with your hair. 

You have movie night the next night to make up for it, and he puts the movie you wanted to watch in before you can even talk about it ( he ends up loving the movie and after that you two watch it all the time)

Id have to make an entire other thing for when Vash and Wolfwood fight because it’s no fun for anyone

NSFW stuff

After the three of you finally get past the awkward stages and start fucking, you find out these two are…horny

They’ll grab you and go to town any time

They really like to share you, but there’s no jealousy in the relationship so it’s okay for one on one time as well!

Wolfwood will pull you into steamy make out sessions whenever. He’ll do it out of nowhere. I imagine he just really likes you, and can’t get enough

He’s very handsy. He’ll constantly have his hand on your hips, or your thigh, and your waist. He likes touching you

He’s the type to sneak risqué touches in public. He like watching you struggle to not let anyone else know what he’s doing

Quickies everywhere with Wolfwood

Vash is a lot more loving (not that Wolfwood isn’t loving– he probably has cried during sex) 

Vash takes his time though. He wants every moment with you to be special. He likes to do stuff like rubbing your back, and peppering kisses down your shoulders. He’ll run his hand up your shirt, and kiss your neck softly. He builds up to it

He really likes shower/bath sex. It’s intimate and relaxing

He also like when you take control (i know he’s a whimperer)

He is so bad at any type of public sex though. He gets embarrassed way too easily (and i think Wolfwood has fun with that) 

When the three of you do it together it’s fucking electric 

[ciaran]

like this is the thing with Wolfwood saying that Vash really messes with him bc imagine living god knows how many years as a lone killer wandering the desert. refusing to grant mercy, hardening yourself to every cry for help. he's had one thing hammered into him: he doesn't get to be soft, he doesn't get to be kind. if he tries to help a stranger, someone he loves will suffer. pick your battles, he's told, and fight them alone.

and then he meets Vash and Vash doesn't try to deny that Wolfwood may be a killer, but he looks at Wolfwood with such sincere gentleness anyway. when Wolfwood got this stupid babysitting detail for Knives Millions' pacifist baby brother he maybe expected someone as insufferable as Knives himself—as relentlessly arrogant and superiorist, judging everyone by impossible standards. but Vash isn't like that. he is always, always willing to give people another chance, and according to him Wolfwood deserves one—just like that. and Wolfwood was trying to kill Roberto and Meryl so that it would be easier to wrangle Vash in the right direction (and Wolfwood did assume that Vash would need to be manipulated into it), but then Vash was so stupid and so stupidly caring that Wolfwood rescued the people he was conspiring to murder just to keep Vash happy. already it meant a little too much to him that this man's faith in him not die too soon, though it would of course be gone when Vash figured out that Wolfwood was trying to lead him to...

the place he's going anyway. another burden of guilt easing off Wolfwood's shoulders, though what's left now weighs heavier. and then you get the story of Rollo, and Vash yelling at Wolfwood because he could have saved the boy if Wolfwood hadn't done him in too soon and that's when it clicks for Wolfwood that oh, this guy is insane. he's just like this all the stupid fucking time. he's not just here to protect Vash from other people but also himself, and god, it's not going to be easy.

and it's not easy, really. but it feels that way. right up until Vash looks at a man sent to kill them and tells Wolfwood that he can, in fact, save him. that they can do it together. and Wolfwood would never believe him if not for what was at stake, and if Vash didn't pull this off Wolfwood would never believe in anything again. so they don't save Livio but they do save the orphanage, and that's when it becomes clear just how much is at stake for Wolfwood inside this mess.

he had a system. it was a shit system in a death spiral of entropy, but it worked. it was his, and it kept him going, which was all he could ask for. but there's a shocking joy in saving people, in pulling off the impossible next to this man who makes miracles feel commonplace. and it scares Wolfwood how much he wants that, how badly he craves a life where he's better, where he's more. he can keep killing—he'll be nothing short of the best in the business. but Vash looked at him and said he saw something, and the idea that that could truly be there—it feels like a death sentence. it's the end of Wolfwood as he knows himself.

and now he's terrified. the realization that Vash knew what he was comes as less of a surprise than a painful inevitability. of course Vash knew. of course he tried to help anyway. he gave Wolfwood the same blank ticket to the future he gives everyone, and Wolfwood signed Vash's end in blood. and he's hoping that if he does it like this he can kill the part of himself that keeps believing, foolishly, that he can be more than the worst of what humanity has to offer—kill the part of him that wants to trust Vash when he says that trying to care is worth it even if you get hurt. the side that says maybe Wolfwood isn't as sick and scared of pain as he thinks he is, maybe he can afford to open his heart.

then he thinks: are you stupid? have you caught whatever madness Vash has? it works for him because he has no higher ambition than watering the desert with his blood, but you want to stay alive, don't you? your life is shit and you can't wait to die but until you're dead you're going to cling to this hell by the skin of your teeth. why should you sacrifice yourself for someone else? who protected you when you needed it, even if you didn't deserve it? how dare you believe that you can be good when you've killed so many people for no better reason than you were ordered to do so? how dare you believe in something so soft as love when you're a monster?

so he doubles down. he walks Vash to his doom and walks away. and even then, when Vash gets hurt, his second thought is to kill whoever did that—his first thought is to rush to Vash's side.

[multiverse-imagines]

Hello! I wonder if you could write a sequel to Bad Omen but with Vash or Milly and Meryl meeting reader after Fifth Moon event.

Please and thank you

A/N: Absolutely! I'm so sorry it took literally all year to write this! I've been in a weird place, so writing hasn't happened much in general; and quite frankly I hate not writing. There's nothing worse than not writing. Anyways, Enjoy!

Bad Moon

Chapter 2: The Bigger Picture

A year and a half went by, and yet each night I stared up at the fifth moon, the giant crater in it. I could feel the phantom pains of my arm aching whenever I looked at it, grounding me to reality. Even as I ran the memories through my mind like a movie, I couldn't help it. The man… that calm before the storm… the brother of The Stampede… The Stampede that hadn't been heard from since that, now second, infamous day.

In a town to the far south, I was working in yet another restaurant. Despite my prosthetic arm and bum knee, I had really begun to enjoy talking with the locals, and being so sweet to them that they showered me with tips. Sometimes. It was during one of my shifts that I saw a familiar face. The two ladies who had been with The Stampede as they had entered Augusta. I was relieved to see what they had survived, but the short one looked absolutely livid at the sight of me. I gasped as she charged at me, and I hardly had time to scramble away before she was interrogating me as if I had messed up her order and she wanted to speak to my manager.

“It's you! You were leaving Augusta that day! How did you know he would be there? Who do you work for?!” She yelled in the restaurant, causing a scene. I put my hands up in surrender as she held my shirt collar.

“I don't work for anyone! I… I just…” I tried to speak up as she continued to beg and berrate me for answers, and I didn't notice her tears until her grip on my shirt faltered. I paused, looking at her with sadness. She… she loved The Stampede… the man who was now missing. I looked to the woman’s friend, the tall girl who had ordered the pudding and Ceylon tea.

“Meryl… it's not their fault…” the big girl said softly, as if this wasn't the first time the short one had lashed out since the Typhoon’s disappearance.

“Yeah, Milly, but…” Meryl sighed, looking into my eyes. It was clear she still wanted answers. I gave a sigh, and steadied myself as I asked them to wait. I told my boss I was taking break, as there was a lull in my customers, and I sat down with them, a dessert snack in my hands.

I told them everything I knew. July, my injuries, the strange man who was The Stampede’s brother, the cities he had destroyed, and the conversation I had with him the day that Augusta was destroyed. They listened in horror for most of it, the bigger girl’s eyes pitying me, and my lonely life. She looked as if she came from a big family. The other girl, Meryl, she still looked heartbroken to know the beloved Stampede was presumed dead.

“I… I saw him… Vash the Stampede… he's a friend of ours… he and his brother… they're not human. I was… terrified to see him that way…” she seemed to be regaling mostly to herself. I had known by the brother’s words that he and Vash weren't human. I began to wonder what she saw that day while I had scurried into the sands, but I didn't pry.

“I'm sorry.” I said gently. I had nothing else to offer her except my condolences and my inability to stop this war between these inhuman storms. I offered my name, and an exchange of addresses we could be reached by. If we saw Vash, or Mr. Wolfwood, the priest in black, we could give each other updates.

—

It was another two months since I had seen the Insurance Girls when I saw the man in black. I approached him gently, and introduced myself. He was a kind man, and had such tired eyes. He seemed unfazed by the fact I had met the brother of the Stampede. He seemed to know more about the brother than I did.

“His name is Knives Millions. And if you value your life you’ll keep doing what you have been and run the second you see him.” He said with an edge to his voice that showed an unmistaken kindness. I nodded, heeding his words. When I asked if Vash was alive, Wolfwood shrugged, and said he didn't know, but the look in his eyes was practically begging to say yes. He was alive out there somewhere, and Wolfwood was still looking. He left town later that evening and I believed that to be the end of it. I was wrong of course.

A week later I found myself with a customer of absolute beauty. Her hair was long and blonde, she appeared to be able to kill a man just by glancing his way. She asked for my name, and next I knew I felt a prick in my neck and I was out.

I awoke in a chamber atop a rather comfortable chaise lounge. Sitting across from me, a delicate wine glass in his hand, was Knives Millions. The gaze of a wrathful God was upon his face as he analyzed my visage with general disdain once more.

“We meet again, Human.”

[ohitslen]

Thinking and headcannoning the shit out of angry Stampede! Vash and how Wolfwood deals with that first thing in the morning because i think him getting angry about something and letting down some of his mask in those genuine moments of anger is super awesome

Before we continue I have not read the manga yet so if you read something incredibly obvious or redundant to your experience, well, haha or something OQNENW

This is a VERY LONG Vashwood ramble I have to put SOMEWHERE or I will explode, so feel free to join if you want.

Vash is an overall very expressive person right? very emotional too generally, but the thing is I like drawing people getting angry so that’s what you are getting from me.

And I also often think about the fact that it’s Wolfwood and Knives the ones that have seen him be like that (most often than not towards them).

Wolfwood specifically, I think that he WOULD get scared because when Vash is angry angry, he just seethes and looks like he is three seconds away from being love and peace to hate and war. These are probably the moments in where he carries the most resemblance to Knives, and to anybody that has experienced the man firsthand they know how scary that is because everyone and their moms knows that he does not hesitate to resort to murder if he is upset about something or if it’s inconvenient to him, so it is rightfully terrifying to even think of him getting mad.

Now take the same idea and apply it to Vash, he is so friendly and playful all the time and he gets kicked around all the time too, that it would be almost impossible to imagine him getting angry in a genuine way. That is UNTIL his ideals and morals are being countered or challenged by someone and THAT’S when people are gently reminded that oh yeah he can get mad too, and really fucking mad at that.

The peak of his anger doesn’t last for too long because he tries to level himself quickly, he is aware of how he can look when he gets like that, and it would be showing a little too much about how he is not very human in nature for what he is comfortable with. I think that when he gets mad his expression turns into something very vulnerably honest, to the point in where he unconsciously looks imposing and demanding, paired with his uncanny vibes it really is a treat and anyone at the other end of it would be other than also upset, quite scared. Like Wolfwood.

There is something very obviously other about Vash and he has the privilege of knowing just exactly why that is, and considering that his brother has a record for being a certain way when angry, knowing what he is does not soothe him at all. Then again, Wolfwood cares for him still and he is a stubborn guy himself, so even when most likely scared shitless, he would not move his ground, and the only thing that reassures him that things will be fine, is Vash’s pacific nature and also knowing that he cares deeply for him too, but that is a thing he would not think too much about other than the flash of thought that it is in the moment.

Vash is petty as hell too, he remains silent and gives the cold shoulder to the other person that was involved in the argument, and it is usually, once again, Wolfwood at the end of that stick. Wolfwood is a “mind your business and I mind mine” kind of guy considering he never asks things, but traveling with that idiot and having to be with him 24/7 and being given the silent treatment has to be uncomfortable at best incredibly annoying at worst. So even though he won’t change his opinion most of the times, he still insists on talking to him idly sometimes after they argue, something he would usually not do.

All Vash ever responds with are the necessary answers, at first shrugs or nods, then very short and to the point sentences, he eventually warms up to him again and they talk the way they usually do; and just like that things seems to be at bay for the time being until the next unavoidable argument comes by.

No matter how many times they argue, when things escalate and Vash begins to show his very honest anger, Wolfwood’s instincts would be screaming at him to stop it and to get away, because whatever Vash is feeling is reeking of a danger that no matter how enhanced he might be, he is NOT gonna make it through whatever will happen to him worse comes to worst. But when has he ever actually heard his instincts when it comes to dealing with Vash. So he always replies and stays.

He is somehow one of the very few (almost non existent) people who can deal with Vash when he is like that, one thing is getting mad at Vash and the other is him getting mad at you, and he has bite alright, he will say things that can come across as hurtful and very venomous when he starts to get more visceral, and yeah the whole predator kind of vibe he can give off is there too.

Maybe Wolfwood also knows how hurt Vash would feel if he retreats because of how scared he feels and that’s why he doesn’t back away. It would be reasonable if he did, hell he doesn’t owe him shit for all he knows and he would be in his whole right to run away scared if he wanted, but for one it would be too cowardly, and two Vash would be once again pushed away for being something not human, and that would be a scar he would carry for his whole life and Wolfwood does not want to be a part of that. So that’s another reason to the ever growing list of “why don’t I just let this be”.

There is an odd sense of comfort in seeing Vash get mad, knowing that the man knows his ground, that even he has lines he won’t allow anyone to cross, that he can allow himself to feel something genuine for once and not the fake little things he is always doing. It is the positive side Wolfwood tries to see in those situations and what he has to remind himself over and over again so he doesn’t flinch away. Good thing he has some practice in arguments thanks to his little siblings back at the orphanage, practice he refuses to let go and holds on to dear life because he needs any crumb of reason at those moments.

At some point when hands are involved, when a clench to the shirt and a push to the shoulder escalates to shoving the other to the ground and a punch to the gut, Wolfwood goes full survival mode because no one told him that Vash was THAT strong and THAT heavy and THAT intimidating. He could have guessed after having watched the man fight. He is capable and strong, he usually moves with a certain preciseness and care under the goofy display, he may twirl around and stumble when dodging, but he is dodging and also landing hits.

He knows that Vash is strong and that he is also incredibly careful. But that’s when he is in all his senses with a mostly cool head, so having him hovering over Wolfwood pressing him down rendering him to the ground while very obviously mad and trying to prove his point, he freezes before he can react and fight back.

Those are the times where Vash feels the most guilty after the fight from what Wolfwood can gather and wildly assume. If him not eating (again) for days or even refusing to acknowledge Wolfwood unless necessary is any sign. That behavior can last over a week which is a little too long for Wolfwood’s peace of mind. So he starts poking again because apparently arguing again is the only way to make the bastard answer more. And it usually works, some nudging here and there and putting lemon with salt to the wound seems to do the trick.

It entails more shouting and screaming at each others faces their flaws that they already know like a script, until things start to calm down when Wolfwood reassures him that he is tougher than he looks, and that no matter what he won’t just leave Vash in a ditch, and if they were going to travel together for the future to come they would have to learn how to sort things out. Something he knows neither of them will probably never learn, but it is what it is and that’s what he can resort to at the moment, and it does seem to satisfy Vash a little. So once they are done, and they go their separate ways, never too far from each other, Vash starts to nibble at his food and says or asks little things to Wolfwood, and just like that they are good to go again.

They are both aware that addressing out loud how fucking scary Vash can be at those raw moments of anger, would be like painting a line of ‘I am this and you are that so we shouldn’t be doing this’ that neither of them would actually want to have. So even when yeah it can be horribly scary and surprisingly intimidating to deal with Vash when he is angry, Wolfwood is willing to stay and fight with him if that’s what he wants, if that’s what he needs. Even if it’s starting to take a toll on him. He is getting used to it though so it will be fine.

Probably.

[beanibon]

modern!AU where reader is in love with Vash but it is just one sided. When the reader sees Vash is flirting with Meryl or Wolfwood, it breaks her heart. Nai, who has a crush on reader, wants to give her comfort, but Reader has other thoughts and wants to forget about Vash, so she sleeps with Nai. Afterwards, Reader doesn't feel any better and starts to cry and Nai realizes that he will never have Reader the way he wants. Hell yeah who doesn't love some smut and angst

I LOVE me a good angsty fuck session!

TW: ANGST, implied sex.

Never to Be Yours

Just seeing the way Wolfwood flung an arm over Vash's shoulder hurt, it made your heart squeeze with the agony of never having a chance to confess to the one person you loved. Since meeting Vash in daycare you had developed a silly childhood crush, one you convinced you'd grow out of.

But you were wrong.

For years up until your college graduation you held onto that crush, hyping yourself up to confess the moment you threw those stupid hats in the air. But that was when you discovered someone had bet you, someone already had Vash.

That someone was Nicholas D Wolfwood, your brother.

What hurt the most was that you were the one that introduced them, jealously never looked good on a person and you felt the ugliest whenever you withdrew. Now that Nicholas and Vash were a thing, you were constantly reminded of what you couldn't muster the courage to do, Vash practically living with you, Nicholas and Livio.

Livio was sympathetic, he knew about your one-sided crush after you seeked advice from your second oldest brother, but even he couldn't do much after knowing that Nicholas had already made a move. At least he was there to comfort you, to protect you against Nicholas's unknowingly painful taunts. You didn't hate your brother, at least that's what you told yourself, you just wished things had've been different.

Perhaps maybe then you didn’t have to be forced to drop of Nicholas's laptop off to the lovey dovey couple, who were most likely gonna pirate a movie off his many illegal websites.

The moment your knuckles touched the door it was flung open, unexpectedly coming face-to-face with a fuming platinum blonde.

Knives, or Nai as he allowed you to call him, was the prodigy of the Saverem twins, though he was hardly ever seen. His temper was terrifying, but for some bizarre reason his gaze would soften at the sight of you.

And that's what happened, the moment he tried to leave the disgusting sound of Vash and that home-wrecker, the sight of you cowering made his eyes widen and his body relax.

"What are you doing here?" Blunt as usual, at least Nai hasn't changed.

"Nicholas asked me to drop off his laptop," You flinched at the sight of Vash underneath your brother, averting your gaze instantly. "Could I maybe pass this onto to you, I have...work to get back to."

Nai knew about your crush, he always knew. From the moment Vash shoved his shy new friend before his antisocial twin, sitting beneath the Daycares apple tree, Nai knew you liked Vash. But that didn't stop him from falling for you, longing for you to give up this hopeless pursuit of his oblivious twin and perhaps chose him instead.

Looking back at the insufferable couple, those stunning icy eyes hardening to steel the moment they fell on Nicholas. Nai was tempted to snatch the device, ditching it at bastard that reeked of old cigarettes.

"Nai? What's the matter?" Your voice, meek and clearly holding back several tears, brought him back to you. Clearly the reminder of losing the man you cared for to your arrogant brother was effecting you, Nai wondered how much you cried for the loss.

"Nothing," pale hands reached for the laptop, that same temptation of throwing it against the wall resurfacing. "Wait here."

With the door now closed, you could only gather some idea as to what happened from Nicholas's shouts and Vash's begging, before Nai reappeared. The elder twin had the biggest shit eating grin, offering a hand to you.

Hesitantly you took it, glassy eyes questioning Nai as he lead you away from his apartment. "No need to worry about it, what do you say we get some snacks, drinks and sit down for a movie at yours?" The smile Nai offered looked unnatural on his normally harsh features, yet it suited him.

Your slow nod was enough to confirm, in which the older twin was rather grateful for.

Nai growled against your shoulder, arms caging you hungrily against the plush mattress of your bed, chest pressed against your back. Sweet, needy moans filled his ears, and satisfied smirk played at his lips.

For years he fantasised having you, for years he longed for your close embrace, and now he fina-

"Vash~"

Nai froze, muscles tensed as his wide eyes moved down to your equally stunned face. The world seemed to halt its movements, forcing the two of you into hesitant realisation.

You were still in love with Vash.

He will never have you, not fully.

As tears pricked at your eyes, apologies spilling from your drool coated lips, Nai just hovered above you. Eventually his expression turned to his usual unreadable, emotionless stare, eyes void of any feelings. Was this perhaps what you felt watching Vash chose another?

"I apologise, I didn't mean to force you into anything." Nai spoke quietly, too quietly.

"N-no! You didn't, please Nai I'm sorry, I don't know what came over me!" Your sorrowful pleas tugged at his heart, Nai knew you just didn't want to be left alone, to be left behind as the people around you grow to love one another. But it seemed he'll always fall in his much more loved brother's shadow yet again.

"Nai, please..." A shuddering whine left your throat once he pulled out, sitting back on his hunches as he looked out your window, watching the world go by. You didn't know how to comfort Nai, how to really talk to the man that hardly liked to be seen. So all you did, stupidly enough, was grab some clothes and run out your room.

You ignored Livio's concern as you barged past him, exiting the small house as you fled to your car. Nai watched from your window, holding back his own tears as he dressed himself and walked out. It seemed Livio caught on quickly, that pathetic sad gaze infuriated Nai, but he didn't want to stick around.

"Nai? What are you doing here?" Icy emotionless eyes met with Vash's wide and curious ones, shouldering past him roughly.

Nicholas piped up, oh so diligently by his boyfriends cowering form. The sight sickened Nai, made him want to scream, shout and punch the wall beside his brother, the one who took everything from him. The greatly loved Vash Saverem, no accomplishments, an unstable job at a local plant nursery and nothing noteworthy about him. But everyone praised the ground he walked on, and Nai was furious.

"Congratulations brother," Nai seethed through gritted canines, towering over Vash. "You have lost the only person who cared about you for years, and you haven't even realised it yet."

Without so much as a final glance, Nai slammed the door shut, shaking the entire house at his anger, at his pain. The one thing he longed for the honour of having, was still attached to Vash's heart by an invisible string, blind to the one person that mattered.

So for what is was worth, Nai would remain by your side, apologise for the mistake he made tonight. He would be the shoulder you cried on, the friend you can rely on.

Nai would be patient, he has been ever since you flashed him that smile back in 6th grade, the first time you really interacted with him. For you'll always have a place in his broken heart, whether or not you have a place in yours for him.

Definitely didn't go overboard with the angst, I don't know what you mean. I apologise for the not so smut smut, I kind of wanted to focus on the angst but let me know if you do want maybe a sequel or a oneshot of the actual smut CAUSE I WILL DO THAT.

Hope you enjoyed Anon and everyone else who reads this!

[checkereddreams]

MmmmMMNGH some early concept sketches. Pretend any weird lines don’t exist—-I’m drawing this on my phone like the poor person I am lolol.

The story is still developing as well but…feel free to add in any input! I love hearing ideas.

Instead of Wolfwood being a terrible Ashley Furniture salesman, Vash decides to give it a try and spills his wine all over the bleached upholstery.

….whatever leads up to that scenario I’m not sure, but the death is certain.

The roles are reversed, and Wolfwood has to bury Vash. And he’s absolutely terrified of what this means now, especially for humanity once Knives finds out about this.

Vash’s soul enters the afterlife, and it’s kind of a big community like in Coco. The mood is mixed, maybe he recognizes quite a few people. But he probably doesn’t want to be recognized, really.

Especially not when those fangs of his are on full display. He’s just skull and bones, even lankier than when he had flesh. This wasn’t the “him” that people had come to know in the living world.

Somehow, Wolfwood finds out a way to enter this realm and he attempts to do it without Knives knowing about any of this. He has a time limit. He paints his face, covers his head, wears black gloves, whatever he needs to do to blend in.

He manages to find Vash (though it’s not that hard, he’s one of the few 6 ft+ tall skeletons meandering around). He lays out the stakes, lets Vash know that Knives is going to wipe the planet clean now that there’s nothing holding him back. He misses him, he honest to god needs to come back to the living world no matter what it takes.

But Vash….he hesitates. Maybe he’s seen Rem. Like the actual Rem. He hasn’t talked to her yet but he needs to. He’s been just a stone’s throw away from her at one point and he’s going to find her again and he needs to tell her everything. He can’t go back. Maybe he doesn’t want to. Maybe he’s somehow given a normal life here, as normal as it can be. He sees everyone he’s missed, and they missed him. And they’re like family. Why would he come back?

Wolfwood knew Vash’s skull was thick, but he didn’t know just how thick until his fist makes contact and quite literally pops it clean off Vash’s shoulders.

They eventually come to an agreement and there’s trials they would have to face to get back to the living world, but I wanted to capture just the amount of color this world would bring out compared to dusty Gunsmoke.

I’m wondering if Vash still has powers in this world. Maybe, Wolfwood’s flesh starts to fade away the longer he stays there, but for Vash it’s the opposite. He can bring out powers and he gains a faint blue glow that outlines his wings and his missing arm (I don’t think he would carry that prosthetic into the afterlife anyway?)

I’ll do more doodles but hopefully you guys like these for now?

[hellsingmongrel]

So, bit of ramblings on my Post-Trimax Wolfwood headcanons.

Man, one of my favorite tropes in media is a character who's spirit lingers on after they've died, but it's usually something you only see in fanfic, so I cannot get over how FUCKING FERAL I was when I realized that it was legit a thing in Trimax, and that Wolfwood was the one we actually got to see, legitimately talking to the people he'd left behind and confirming that ghosts in the canon weren't just hallucinations or something! Like yeah, we saw Tessla leading the boys to her body, but since her ghost was never mentioned again, it could have easily have been written off as a fluke, right?

NOPE. They are real and they linger after to watch over the people they care about or to send messages to the people who are still alive! And the fact that the character who had just wormed his way into being just as beloved to me as my favorite character (Which NEVER happens, I usually only have enough brain cells for one at a time!) and that we had just had our hearts ripped to shreds watching him die was also the one we got to know had definitely stayed behind to watch over the people he loved just makes me SO HAPPY! I rp that asshole from time to time, and I just love exploring the implications of it!

I play him like he's been there a LONG TIME. When he died, Rem was there, watching over Vash, but when Knives spent the last of his energy, she chose to move on with him, now that she knew Wolfwood would be there to keep watch over Vash, and he took it SERIOUSLY. He's been waiting so long, he's lost his sense of time, he thinks it's only been a couple decades when it's been CENTURIES. And the time has softened his own trauma, he's gone from being surly and angry and defensive to being at peace and finding comfort in the fact that its allowed him to see more of Vash's life than he ever would have been able to live long enough to see when he was alive. And it's given him time to notice just how unwell Vash is, how broken he is, watching over him when he thinks he's alone and lets himself break down.

But it's also made Wolfwood a bit unwell in his own way; as time went on and the people he knew in life began to pass away, too, his interest in paying attention to what the people around them were doing wained, and his dedication to watching over Vash until it was his time to pass on became a strange sort of dependence. He loses his sense of self, in a way, until the most important thing in his existence is being there for Vash, waiting for him, having long-since accepted that when the time comes, it'll be over and he's alright with that.

He's happy, but to the perspective of a living person, it would seem TWISTED in a way. He still thinks he's a damned soul, stealing more time than he's allowed and only damning himself further by doing so, and he just knows that when he gets to walk Vash into whatever comes after for them, they'll be separated again, for the last time, and there won't be any coming back from it that time, because Vash is too good, too kind, too HOLY to ever be damned. But it's fine. Wolfwood knew he was damned long before his death, and time has just given him the chance to make peace with it and simply be happy with the fact that at least he'll be able to be with Vash when he can move on to wherever good people go at the end. And yet when it happens, Vash feels the same way about himself, so certain that he's the one who's damned, and their reunion is wonderful and painful and terrifying for both of them in different ways.

He's even worse with interacting with people, once he's forced to interact with the living. I play Wolfwood in a game where he stumbles into revealing himself after spending centuries never letting himself be seen, and he worries that going "silent" again will upset people. He's spent centuries being a silent shadow, certain that letting Vash know he was there would only cause more suffering for an already unwell mind, so he's forgotten how to interact with tact, blurting out whatever pops into his head because he's only had himself to talk to for all that time. He hurts people without meaning to, begins to suffer from the crisis of worrying that no matter what he does, he's a burden to the people who mourn him, he doesn't belong, his existence is nothing but a constant reminder of what's coming and will only cause the people around him pain. He's both able to be the kind, caring, loving person he might have been if the Eye of Michael had never taken him from the orphanage, and also a HUGE, ANXIOUS WRECK.

And the thing that makes it all worse for him is the fact that when he was dumped into the game I have him in, he was separated from the Vash of his timeline, and now lives in constant fear that he'll never see him again, that he won't be there when he passes on and there won't be anyone to greet him on the other side, alone and never knowing that he was waiting for him. He made a promise to Rem that he'd watch over him for her, that he'd lead him to his final destination where he could be with his family again, and now that he's lost that, what purpose does he have? He's terrified to let go himself, worried he'll pass onto the other side when Vash was right around the corner, but the thought of lingering without finding him again, missing his chance to be there for him when it's his turn, leaves him in an almost constant state of almost-panic.

I also just think it's kind of sweetly poetic, if in the end, he chose to continue the role he'd been forced into; take Vash where he's supposed to be. Only this time, it's his choice, and it won't be to his death. He wants to guide him to where he knows people are waiting for him, where he'll finally be happy and be at peace. He doesn't mind the fact that he's going to Hell, so long as he was able to be the one that leads Vash to the place where he won't have to be in pain ever again.

[revenantghost]

Hi, I'm so curious what you realized about Wolfwood's freaky vision when he delivers Knives to Vash and what it means in Tristamp!

Ok ok ok ok so, we're theory-spinning here, so keep in mind this isn't firm or anything, but! (For context to anyone reading this ask, I mention in the tags of deludedfantasy's lovely post that I had a major revelation about all this)

Alright, so Wolfwood suffers this horrifically gory vision in chapter five of volume seven, and you point out that Wolfwood doesn't think it's Knives giving him this vision. Which Wolfwood's been around both Vash and Knives's terrifying, horrible empathetic powers. He's been frozen in place by both of them, and both events are deeply ingrained in his psyche. He would know if it was the twins, they haven't been able to hide this plant ability from him.

But we do see a beyond horrific and brutal vision like this one other time.

And I remember this because it haunted me, the sudden gore made me nauseous: much later during a fight, Livio (I believe it was Livio from what I remember, but if it was Razlo and I'm misremembering, let me know and I'll correct myself) suffers a very vivid image of his spine being ripped from his body while he's still alive. During his fight with Elendira. Who Wolfwood is surprised to see and doesn't seem to have had much experience with (Chapel seems to be the GHG contact?) when he meets her way back then, so he wouldn't be familiar with her evil presence.

It's the only other character we see have this effect on people outside of the twins. Which makes me think... okay man, what the fuck, what if Orange isn't even reaching a little to make Elendira some sort of freaky plant creature??? (The trans rep is *sighs and places face in hands* yeah, but that's for another post) Nightow was a part of the design process, this is a change he would have had to be all for. But what if this aspect of her character design wasn't a big change--what if it wasn't a change at all?

We joke and lament about how none of the GHG's ridiculous powers are explained, but. We have context for this one power. We've seen it multiple times, in fact, and it's something only independent plants can use. And, truly, out of the late-game GHG, Elendira has the most lacking backstory, it drives me up a wall. So, I'm not saying this was the intent, but... it's actually possible tbh.

[doodleferp]

Question for the gods walk among us why do people fear Vash? What did he do to get the title dark god?

My friend, you are opening what Trixie Mattel would call "the Pandora Boxx of boxes". (cracks knuckles) Here we go. In this AU, Vash’s nicknames include The Humanoid Typhoon, The Dark Walker, and The Living End.

Since all the Plants are worshipped, Vash is no exception. However, since we have to adhere to canon, he is seen as a dark and/or chthonic god -- essentially all Four Horsemen rolled into one dude. The Stampede is seen as a harbinger of death, and if he shows up to your town, everything you know and love will be destroyed. But because Vash is Vash, the people of No Man's Land have unwittingly made someone's lie into truth by panicking and trying to fight him whenever he comes near a town. I want to think that because he isn't treated like the other Plants, Vash is considered low on power compared to the rest of his kin. And because the Plants are all generally kind entities, they call him to them whenever he's nearby so they can give him some of their own energy to heal him. While it heals him physically, it can only cause more damage to him since the townspeople believe The Stampede is here to kill the gods. I don't think the other Plants can travel, just because I wanna keep Vash and Knives as independents. If they can walk, I don't think they'd be able to go very far out of their oasis, either by their own will or by the people protecting them.

Speaking of Knives, he's much less genocidal in this AU! Because he believes that Plants are above humans, seeing humans so blatantly subservient to his species gives him a big ego boost. He sees humans doing all they can to keep Plants happy and healthy, and it makes him happy -- but he wants to keep things the way they are because he believes that if humans didn't deify Plants, they would abuse and work them to death. So he uses his own abilities and the Eye of Michael to further the illusion that Plants are gods. He's also the reason that there's so much hostility towards non-believers and followers of other religious movements. These groups run the risk of breaking his illusion and showing the "truth" about Plants, so he wants to get rid of them. Knives has a public figure as one of the rare Walking Gods, so he’s seen by humanity as something ethereal and they generally have a good opinion of him. He has his people at the Eye of Michael going behind peoples backs and trying to take out non-believers, though — like Wolfwood. The Eye of Michael is probably the biggest Plant sect on the planet and it has an astronomical amount of followers.

Meanwhile, Vash is much more withdrawn and lonely because he has to remain hidden at the cost of his own life at the very least. Like, the second someone thinks they saw The Dark Walker, it's sounding the sirens and sending everyone from the middle of town to the next three towns over into a massive panic, people get out guns and weapons and attacking anything that look suspicious. It’s to the point where Vash is used to sleeping out in the desert because there’s like a one in a million chance that he’d be able to sleep at the edge of a boonies town without being physically attacked. Nobody has any idea how it happened, not even him, but people are so viscerally terrified of Vash in a way that makes the canon look like a playground. There’s terrible stories about Vash that he doesn’t even remember happening to him, but he hears about them so much that he’s starting to accept them as truth. He's rarely able to let loose and let the adorable extroverted bbygirl in him come out to play and he’s just…resigned to his fate.